Take the Nestea Plunge

Is the next layer of surrender calling you to take the Nestea plunge?

When I was a girl there was a commercial where the person would drink Nestea and then fall backward into the pool of  water. This was the Nestea plunge. My friends and I used to do this dare as kids during the summer months. We would stand at the edge of the pool and free fall. Arms outstretched, heart wide open. Sometimes I was scared, but interestingly enough, the more I did it the more it was fun.  

Sitting with a prayer my teacher gave me yesterday to say everyday for the next 30 days. “God release me from all that does not serve me. All that is not in my highest and best good let it be removed" (I paraphrased).

When she proposed this invitation yesterday, I was all in, "I aint scared", I thought. I even said it several times to prove to myself, I am wide open. 

 I woke this morning and said the prayer. Uh oh...I  felt a bit of uneasiness, I felt  holy shit!! do I trust enough to not control what will leave? the thoughts started racing. I could feel where I wanted to say " but don't take....." fill in the blank. 

Then I felt myself just open. "Okay", I said to myself, "I felt a yes to this prayer so I must be ready for the Nestea  plunge."

I must be ready to free fall backwards into life’s ocean. I have no idea when I will hit the water, how far I will drop, what it will feel like or what is down there when I arrive and yet I am letting go. Just like when I was a child standing at the edge of the pool, I just let go and trust. 

This next layer of surrender must be calling me.  I have reached that spot in my life, I am no longer willing for the spells of safety to be my guide. That fairytale is long over. 

Big breath…..